Still can't hold him 11:03am April 10th

We just got to the hospital.  They aren't going to be taking Owen off of the ventilator today, he was a little touchy last night with his renals dropping every time they suctioned him.  They changed the bandages on his chest this morning.  They have decided to increase his feedings to 10ml every other feeding so he is about to get 10ml of Mommy's milk.  Cassie is starting to get upset that we can't hold Owen yet.  Yesterday when we were walking out, we saw the parent's of the baby that went into surgery after Owen holding their baby and that hit Cassie really hard.  It is so difficult not to hold him and to not hear it when he is definitely crying out.